Work/study from home

I remember when quarantine started months ago... I loved every bit of it. Not having to leave the house, wearing PJs and no bra all day, waking up whenever. But I was still attending online classes so I wasn't exactly wasting my time. "Wasting my time" is something I would come back to later as I think it is more subjective than we think it is.
So my online classes ended and I was thrilled at the thought of not doing anything but this thrill was short-lived (just a week to be precise lol). The extrovert in me craved human interaction so bad, I started talking on the phone daily and there was a time I purposely had my phone on Airplane Mode to avoid calls altogether!
I started feeling like what is the point of anything and around this time a couple of unfortunate events happened which led to me feeling super low and stressed all the time. What did I do? what any human, okay normal human, would do- binge! I binged on Netflix and icecream TUBS but that gave me only short term happiness. I used to go for walks too, wasn't a couch potato totally, but I was mentally tired.
I realised I cannot always stay this way because months have passed and this thing is still going on. Yes, I will refer to it as "this thing" as I am honestly sick of that word, it's everywhere!
So recently in order to "not waste my time" as they sat, I enrolled in courses, I have been trying to read, I am trying to do yoga again after a long break, Netflix and occasional icecream binge is still there hahaha and obviously spending time with my lovely family.
But I did all this in order to be productive during the extra time I have, or we all have.
But I felt today that I am feeling burdened again like I took up more than I thought I could do and need to actually take a step back.
We are all forgetting that yes we do have extra time but not an extra mind...
Just because you have the freedom to do more things doesn't mean you have to. Everyone is different and it is not a productivity contest.
Why is reading a book or working out productive but watching Netflix or just sleeping in isn't? Because tbh one can learn from all sources and one is allowed to relax. I am not defending any one thing here or asking you all to just not do anything, all I am trying to say that it is okay if you're taking this extra time for yourself. To do anything in addition to what you have to do (study/work) that makes you happy, or do nothing at all. This thing is not a blessing in disguise or a challenge you have to overcome. This is just another thing that shall pass. If you want to simply talk to someone, I love talking so send me a text. Warning- I take 3 to 5 business days to respond.

Comments

  1. ARSHWAAL SinghAugust 1, 2021 at 9:30 AM

    Last 17 months have been no less than a roller coaster ride!
    We have grown , we have just spent our time doing nothing , we have been introspective about our life in so many ways , we have spent more time with our parents than anyone else in past so many years , we have lost friendships and valued people who really belong here , we have been frustrated and irritated at times , we have seen a new aspect of life but even after all this we have understood what we really are and self awareness has just been exceptional! We have known ourself more during these times and still growing!
    What really matters is we are here and still going strong!
    You are beautiful and strong and posses exemplary potential!
    Just hang in there and we’ll fly!
    Take care and Thank you for being just so adorable!

    Yours lovingly/truly/sincerely
    NOT A STALKER (a full time admirer)
    Arsh is the name!

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  2. It wasnt Me....August 11, 2021 at 11:54 PM

    lol, i did soo much of Netflix the past year that now I cannot get myself to watch anything. Mind has gone into a self imposed Vi-De-o tox.

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  3. VishwaAugust 31, 2021 at 11:24 AM

    Ok talking of sharing experiences,
    In past 1 year I’ve been very productive and successful as I’ve achieved all the points I wanted too that I decided at the starting of this year like

    - Buying my first car
    - getting a promotion
    - family outing
    - Completing my KRA
    - Winning best performance award again this year
    - Starting my fitness journey

    It’s not even end of year yet but I feel like if we really commit to something we can achieve it.

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  4. vishaakhOctober 19, 2021 at 5:41 AM

    Reading your blog posts now as we almost end 2021. Great stress buster.

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