Mihika's upside down world

When I say I miss school, I don't miss waking up early but I miss my dad insisting a week in advance that I start practising how to sleep early. When I say I miss meeting my childhood friends, I don't miss what games we played but how innocent we were and all we ever wanted from each other was some fun time and a few laughs. When I say I miss my old toys, I don't miss how they looked or felt but how happy they made me. When I say I miss summer or winter vacation, I don't miss the holidays but having something to look forward to each day because we wanted to live each day like it's the last. When I say I miss the park, I don't miss how aesthetic the scenery was but the swing which made me feel like I could fly as high as possible. When I say I miss watching cartoons, I don't miss or remember the plot of the shows but the excitement of rushing to the washroom during the break to not miss a single minute. When I say I miss being a kid, I don't miss being so...

 I find this question worse than the words "I am fine" We often ask this question when we think the other person is not doing well and we want to help. But why don't we ask this to the person who is smiling? I mean it sounds crazy, right? Asking someone who is happy "Are you okay". They will think I am mocking them. None of us is okay and that's the truth of life. If you think hard, you'll always find something to be happy about, something to be sad about, something to be angry about, and something to be grateful for. It is only when one of these things take up more space, the intensity of the emotion caused by them makes up our mood. The last few days have been a disaster yet some days were nothing short of a dream. This genuinely confused me that at one point I didn't even know how to feel and maybe at that point I felt okay. The good cut the bad and vice versa and I was left in a neutral state. It sucked big time and that's when I realised to ...

   So my journey isn’t the cliché “I wanted to get fit” but rather something I was forced into. I was never a very athletic kid but have always been active. When I was in middle school, I injured my lower back and was on bed rest for 2 months! That too in my summer vacations, so much for enjoying the holidays, eh? Soon I felt better, but my spine had been affected and later I had problems in my lower back as well. I was given the option of either having surgery or doing some stretching exercises. And well this is how I guess I ended up starting Yoga. My love for Yoga is partially due to how it was taught to me the first time and how I feel after Yoga. How I look doesn’t even make it to the list but that’s an added benefit. It was hard for me to balance and stretch initially and I still struggle even today, but you get better with practice and some resilience. My mentor used to tell me all about why we do some stretches, the benefits they have, how Yoga affects our mind and bod...

I remember when quarantine started months ago... I loved every bit of it. Not having to leave the house, wearing PJs and no bra all day, waking up whenever. But I was still attending online classes so I wasn't exactly wasting my time. "Wasting my time" is something I would come back to later as I think it is more subjective than we think it is. So my online classes ended and I was thrilled at the thought of not doing anything but this thrill was short-lived (just a week to be precise lol). The extrovert in me craved human interaction so bad, I started talking on the phone daily and there was a time I purposely had my phone on Airplane Mode to avoid calls altogether! I started feeling like what is the point of anything and around this time a couple of unfortunate events happened which led to me feeling super low and stressed all the time. What did I do? what any human, okay normal human, would do- binge! I binged on Netflix and icecream TUBS but that gave me only short ...

So this is just another thing I have taken up to maintain my sanity during this year, which I don't know why seems to have gone by so fast yet seems to be moving so slow. Well, we cannot fight time (yes I have recently binge watched DARK). So let's try to make the best use of this time? Me by writing and you by reading my posts. Hope to come across people who appreciate my stupid sense of humour as well as my deep thoughts from overthinking. In short, Welcome to my upside-down life!